Heaven Can Wait; We're Only Watching The Stars

I Kissed a girl and I thought it was alright...

Fri, 13 Jun 2008 21:21:10 GMT

ok so I found this site that's everything from gossip girl that they tell you about but you never get to see. or they just make up things that would totally exisit in real life..
anyways..enjoy

http://allthesadyounggossipgirls.tumblr.com/

F.Y.I.

Sat, 24 May 2008 14:58:46 GMT

Tonight I shall be in at a friend's house watching Eurovision( basically american idol..but for all of Europe)
The entries are generally crap. though it is how ABBA was discovered so you know, not all bad...
Of course I will be cheering on Espana even though they probably have one of the WORST videos ever.
I thought I should share it because if I have to love through 5 months of hearing this song OVER AND OVER I need you to know what I'm complaining about.
I give you "Baila Chiki Chiki":

Que Guay!

Sat, 24 May 2008 14:53:24 GMT

If you havn't heard of Vampire Weekend this is my post to you:
I am in deep, deep love with them and i was going to see them in a week in Barcelona at this spring festival but the tickets turned out to be 10000000 euro and they're playing at 2 am and i am not 18 so i cant go. SO.UPSET. needless to say.
anyways I think they are worth listening too even if you don't think you'll like them. to ease into it here are two of my favorite songs. Cape Cod Kwassa Kwassa is genius in so funky and fun and It's one of those songs I wish i could have playing around me all the time!
ok 'nuff talking here we go:

FOR REALSIES THIS TIME

Wed, 14 May 2008 17:38:00 GMT

YOU GUYS.
i know this isn't exactly a brand new story OR post but I am dying. A t.v.-come-real-life relationship hasn't been so exciting since the Brody/Bilson event.
I love it. I really do..almost too much.
Also can we talk about how AMAZINGLY healthy blake lively looks and isn't obese but isn't disgustingly and unattainably thin?

I LOVE IT.

Mon, 12 May 2008 18:06:33 GMT

hahahah when Penn is like"Don't DO IT"

Sun, 11 May 2008 14:03:01 GMT

UM ok i am a youtube FIEND so I'm going to show you some of the stuff I've been watching because i realized what a weird mix of stuff it is haha

I cry.

I laugh. haha when he says "a love train!"

I think this is great.

hahahah.

She's My Kind Of Rain

Sun, 11 May 2008 13:46:02 GMT

yeah..its raining and I got nothing to do. But thats ok because i am super tired and just had a huge lunch and the amazing race is on here in spanish and its HILARIOUS you guys...

My weeks here are disappearing its so scary and they are pretty much entirely filled up. I cannot wait for my dad to come though and I can show him around and show off my spanish haha and also get my hands on some peanut butter and ketchup and teen vouges...ahhh the good life...
I watched THIS movie when I was in Ldn:

and was immediately five years old again.

SEXXX

Sun, 27 Apr 2008 15:53:15 GMT

My mum just sent me this....
I know a few who will enjoy it :-)

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/pages/live/articles/showbiz/showbiznews.html?in_article_id=562241&in_page_id=1773

ooooh he is sooooooo attractive

We would probably most definitely be friends. If I ever met them.

Sat, 26 Apr 2008 11:39:21 GMT

I found this clip and it has an interview with the two of them.

the BEST part is when they imitate Ed Westwick

meanwhile, i had a dream that I met Leighton Meester, she was working at the pastry shop down on my street. it was AWESOME. but i had been watching a lot of clips about Zooey Dechanel so my dream Leighton was more like Zooey...and i didn't like it.
My mom secretly subscribed me to NYLON and the first issue was non other than the blake/leighton cover and im going to make her send it to me express mail haha my mom knows me frighteningly well.

Not Going To Butter To Was So Much Better Than Going To Butter

Fri, 25 Apr 2008 22:06:46 GMT

How much does this look like Mat Saracen?!?!(what... that's his name)

no?just me?

HOW DO THEY BE SO PRETTY?

Wed, 16 Apr 2008 21:23:39 GMT

that's a question I often ask myself..
anyways here's a link to Nylon magazines website and they're featured in the next issue and not really any new questions or answers but the pictures are pretty good and includes this little gem:

“Serena is more thrown to gether and effortless and doesn’t really care, and is just like, has this sexiness to her without trying, and Blair is really uptight and conservative and put together and everything has to be perfect, you know Chuck is kind of cocky and he’s just like, I don’t know, a prick." - Leighton, on Gossip Girl style.
Ha!..but also...make out!! ed and leighton i mean..

If i new how to make icons i would. so PLEASE somebody makes icons out of this!!!!
i will...credit you a lot...lol i really have no other way of thanking you if you do.
ok AWESOME.
http://www.nylonmag.com/?section=article&parid=1309

in other news I'm headed by fast speed train tomorrow to Madrid for a few days, then i have a week of school and then I'm headed to London to visit my LOVE and eat delicious candy and see Stomp in the west end and also just love life. Needless to say I am excited. too bad its forcasted to rain every day in Madrid but do I really care? no...to be honest I just love the train :-)

We Give The World So much...

Sun, 13 Apr 2008 12:07:48 GMT

Taking a five minute break from studying to write down whats happened this week...
on friday I slept over my new friend Marta's house which is amazing. The houses in Spain are all like..tall, not wide. and none of them have carpet. I miss the carpet. Cuz I always have to wear slippers and that's not cozy in your own home! Anyways I taught her how to make chocolate chip cookies and we all ate about 20. and then we made banana splits because they had never had them before. and then...we MIGHT have taught them the cotten eye joe and soulja boy...I'm just saying...that may have happened.

And i talked the whole night in spanish and sometimes I even forgot I was because I was just talking normally and that felt unbelievably satisfying.Also her parents were super nice and were all "come any time! come eat with us! we always have room!" and that was so nice to feel at home somewhere. I mean, my host house is fine, but its not cozy and i'm always walking on egg shells a bit. so it was so nice to just chill out and not care if i put something away in the right place or was offending anyone by playing music too loud or whatever. haha...
next week i go to madrid(!) for about four days to just visit with all the CIEE kids i met here and to obvi see madrid...
then like a week after that i'm going to London for a few days to see L. and C. and catch up on Skins, and watch Friends for 8 hours straight and eat chocolate and crappy salty food that i love and I am sooooo excited words cannot express it. I'm sort of worried if that much time speaking english will be ok for me but whatever I don't care. It's sort of exciting to be doing it all by myself too... taking the plan, planning the flights, catching the train, hailing taxi and telling them where to go blah blah i mean thats sort of lame but i AM only 16 so it makes me feel very capable and who doesn't like to feel that? anyways...I cant think of anything more and Lunch is ready so I'll write more about this week(which was awesome) later on.

You Know You Love Me...

Fri, 04 Apr 2008 14:42:30 GMT

http://community.livejournal.com/gossipgirlmatch/26103.html

you guys. I have a problem...."and it starts with capital R.X." haha see? i love gossip girl. like a little to much.
so i did this match site thing where it says who you are that that is my entry and this is my stamp!!!

ok for a day i thought i was goin got be stamped as Vanessa and i was NOT.OK. with that...
so thank god :-)

in other news: i'm going to the discotechs again with my friends tomorrow night and right now I'm off in search of a shirt to wear thats less than 30 euro... ugh WHERE is forever 21 when you need them?

OMG

Thu, 03 Apr 2008 20:40:38 GMT

I want this picture to DO ME. hahah it's so magical.

thanks to amazing _kathrynn for capturing the beauty :-)

Turn Out The Lights And What Are You Left With?

Wed, 02 Apr 2008 19:12:42 GMT

Listen I have this complicated relationship with one of my best friends. There are times when we love each other so much it hurts and times when I question why I call him my best friend. mean? well he has issues of his own which are important to me that he solves, or at least tries to solve because i don't liek to see him unhappy. He's one of those people that says and does things with a "fuck it" attitude, but then hates himself for doing that, but then thinks"fuck it" again and supresses it.
Obviously there are issues there we won;t go into here but recently while talking with ANOTHER bff, she mentioned that said friend misses me more than he lets on. I hadn't even thought of his lack of communication until she said this. but ever since then i've been more aware of it.

Look: I don't need anyone to hold my hand,
or tell me that I'm great, or check up on me all the time. But I hate to think that I'm being judged on how often I want to talk to my friends or how often I'm not. The frequency of my communications has no correlation to how I'm doing all the way in Europe. I know that they have lives too, and I don't expect a letter every week, or a lengthy post on my wall or something. But something...would be nice. I have problems with the statement, "i think he misses you more then he shows." Not because I don't think its true, but for the sole reason that it's even an issue. Why CANT he tell me that he really misses me? why CANT he write me and tell me what he's feeling? He calls me a best friend but then withholds his feelings and expects me to always dig or something.I always give him an outlet or at least try my best.I can;t change that Im here. I think he is hurt I went away and "left him" but I'm just so tired of getting shut down and not answered. It's frustrating when all you want to do is talk to your friend but they don't ever reply. and then it makes me look liek some desperate kid with no life while in an amazing country that only sits on her laptop asking for her friends to write her. I'd hate to think that after all these years my friends STILL would get that impression of me.

On top of that-Ive realized everything at home is what makes me stressed here. I'm having one of the best weeks of my life but whenever I talk to my parents I get college reminders and rants, whenever i talk to my friends i get....nothng. well ok something from some friends. But i dunno...it's just getting a little old. especially when i see them writing to other people but don't ask me how i'm doing. I know what i'm doing is hard, I know what and what not is benefitting me here..but i'd like a two ended communication. I want to hear what i'm missing and tell them what im gaining...
ok rant over.

She Moves In Her Own Way

Tue, 01 Apr 2008 17:32:34 GMT

Hokay here's another update (mostly for me) of what i'm doing in Spain right now and what i'm thinking about..weeee!
Alright so i love my new friends here. like LOVE. Alex, the really camp one and I have been making cd's for each other with awesome not so secret dirty pleasure songs and they are amazing. he asked me "sabes Hilary duff? and i just about peed my pants. I'm sitting here writing this from my bed and my doors open to my wee little balcony and I can hear the little boys that live next door chattering and my host mom talking on the phone and its so warm and it's divine. this weekend my friends are taking me to the discotechs again, which is just what i need because i got in contact with someone i hate to like/ like to hate which made me also find another girl he's in love with chatting him up so i want to just run, not walk, to the clubs and find some gorgous spaniard. shallow? maybe...am i alone in having these types of thoughts? i hope not, but i dont think so.. haha
When you read this, M., I miss you so much. Above all the rest, its the longest we've been apart and homg i am feeling it. you know me so well and even though that doesn't matter very much when we're at home i wish you were here to see things with me and to talk to and to hear your voice of reason. if i could pay your ticket here i would. but until then i'll eat some.. wasabi peas en memorium.
What was i saying? well all that matters is that this week I have been running on a high..caused by what i have no idea but it's so nice to be excited to go to school or to look forward to the next day. I practiclly skipped out of the classroom today and gwen was all "why are you so happy..its monday" and i was like...ill kill you we're in SPAIN what is wrong with you woman? live it up!
am i right? ..i think i am..
I am getting so stressed about this summer though, I'm excited to come home and give presents and sunbathe and whatnot but im so scared of college applications and college visits and not getting into where I want and not being happy with what I'm doing and having this summer not be as fun as it needs to be. I'm graduating so soon and there's so much i haven't done. it's like really stressing me out trying to make this summer live up to my high hopes...which lets face it, never ends up happening but bleh.
I'm also not looking forward to coming home and having everything be the same, which i know it will be. Obviously seeing my friends will be great but then i have to go doing what i was doing every day, having the same boys not like me and chase after other girls or retarded gf's, which is soooo immature of me but i'm so sick of it. honestly? i've done all these amazing things in my life so far and yet i feel like i'm going to go into college with no experience because there are no boys in my life..how awful and demented is that sounding? i know..but social pressue is just suffocating isn't it? But that's another post...
xoxo,
goss- i mean...Beatrice

WOOHOOO

Sat, 29 Mar 2008 21:57:45 GMT

Taken from jlhfan624

The letter A
Are you available?: oh so very
What is your age?: 16
What annoys you?: rudeness and lateness....oh my god i sound like a grandma...

The letter B
Do you live in a big house?:at home, in the u.s. sorta, i have alot of land. in spain? no, its tiny
When is your birthday?: November 7th
Who is your best friend?: I have a lot actually its too hard to choose

The letter C
What's your favourite candy?: Tootsie rolls and those little gummie coke bottles
Who's your crush?: i have so, so many...(im assuming celebrity. ok pick one? how about jude law.
When was the last time you cried?: about three weeks ago from homesickness/frustration

The letter D
Do you daydream?: like its my job
What's your favourite kind of dog?: mutts :-) but i have a black lab and he is divine
What day of the week is it?: Saturday

The letter E
How do you like your eggs?: scrambled.
Have you ever been in the emergency room?: yup
What's the easiest thing ever to do?: insult someone

The letter F
Have you ever flown in a plane?: oh yes
Do you use fly swatters?: no, they gross me out just thinking about dead bugs
Have you ever used a foghorn?: i wish!

The letter G
Do you chew gum?: I do but it hurts my teeth after a while.
Are you a giver or a taker?: When i have money, a giver... but generally i am a major taker.
Do you like gummy candies?: yes, yes i do

The letter H
How are you?: blah
What colour is your hair?: dirty blonde

The letter I
What's your favourite ice cream?: New York Super Fudge Chunk. OR nutella flavored.
Have you ever ice skated?: yes
Do you play an instrument?: no but oh god i should and i've tried but i have 0 patience

The letter J
What's your favourite jelly bean brand?: bertie botts...no?
Do you wear jewellery?: i like simple stuff for school but when i dress up i like flashy things :-)

The letter K
Who do you want to kill?: this guy from a documentary on white supremacy idiots...i'm still all worked up about it.
Where did you go for kindergarten?: The Montessori School

The letter L
Are you laid-back?: if I'm on time and know what's going on around me. hahah so maybe just on the OUTSIDE, but on the inside my head is going 1000 miles a second
Do you lie?: too much

The letter M
What’s your favourite movie?: Life Is Beautiful? Amelie? Center Stage?(shut.up. its so addicting) dare i say mean girls?
Do you still watch Disney movies?: no, i miss them-i think im the only person left who hasnt seen HSM fully
Do you like mangos?: meh

The letter N
Do you have a nickname?: Bea, bea-bop(dad) beat-rice(madeline), slut/fat-kid (isabel) haha
What is your real name?: Beatrice
What’s your favourite number?: 6
Do you prefer night over day?: Very, very rarely

The letter O
What's your one wish?: to be very succesful
Are you an only child?: yes!

The letter P
What one fear are you most paranoid about?: failing my sats/exams/next year, and not getting into a college that I fall in love with
What's a personality trait you look for in people?: ability to laugh hysterically at a moments notice

The letter Q
What's your favourite quote?: We will all at some time in our lives, fall. Life is so very fragile, we are all vulnerable, and we will all at some point in our lives, fall, we will all fall.
We must carry this in our hearts, that what we have is special, that it can be taken from us, and that when it is taken from us, we will be tested. We will be tested to our very souls. We will all be tested.
It is these times, it is this pain, that allows us to look inside ourselves. thank you fnl...
Are you quick to judge people?: I've gotten better but yeah doesn't everyone?

The letter R
Do you think you're always right?: not always but ALMOST
Are you one to cry?: Not really

The letter S
Do you prefer sun or rain?: Rain
Do you like snow?: in the beginning and then around february i want to kill myself
What's your favourite season?: Fall

The letter T
What time is it?: 10:54
What time did you wake up?: 8 45
When was the last time you slept in a tent?: back in the fall at one of kevins parties

The letter U
Are you wearing underwear?: yup
Underwear or boxers?: Underwear

The letter V
What's the worst veggie?: Eggplant. for realsies you guys its nasty
Where do you want to go on vacation?: Australia. or africa(again) hee

The letter W
What's your worst habit?: cracking my knuckles...OH and over analyzing
Where do you live?: Misery
What's your worst fear?: we already talked about this

The letter X
Have you ever had an x-ray?: Yes
Have you seen the x-games?: yes they are so cool
Do you own a xylophone?: i wish!

The letter Y
Do you like the colour yellow?: depends
What's one thing you yearn for?: someone to take my mind off some things

The letter Z
What’s your zodiac sign?: Scorpio
Do you believe in the zodiac?: haha yeah i guess i do
Favourite zoo animal?: Girrafes!!!

MAJOR SPOILER ALERT!!

Sat, 29 Mar 2008 11:04:28 GMT

oohhh mannnn blair is going to be PISSED.
picture of nate kissing who we all totally knew he would(thank you internet rumors) but if you don't want to see it don't look!!

Once again this is all from Justjared.com

woopsy

Thu, 27 Mar 2008 19:17:20 GMT

ps. I just now figured out that to give credit on icons you do it in your picture section...
so I have all these icons i'm using and no idea where i got them from. Sorry! if you see that just tell me where it's from and I will def. change it..!

Seré Su Distracción

Thu, 27 Mar 2008 18:44:57 GMT

So i have like two friends on this thing but this is really more a place for me to live out my tv obsessions and rant about my perfectly fine life...ready? ok!

Today at my school was the school play and i hadn't been nervous but then right after lunch i suddenly felt my stomach lurch like it always does when I'm about to do something onstage and i realized how scared I was. But not because i had to say all my lines in latin.. because it was like my "debut" to this school. I've been here about two months but nobody really knows what I'm like because its so hard to make friends when you dont have the words to start a conversation.and ok, even though i was just prancing around on stage trying to be cupid(i know..) it still allowed me to show off my sense of humor and i dunno...goofiness.
ok this is going to sound corny but I'm actually really glad that it's so hard for me...because for the most part I find it really easy to make friends maybe not bff's but i find it easy to relate to people i guess. but here its impossible to talk my way through anything because I literally cannot form the sentences. I came here for so many reasons, but as i was writing a college-info-packet-thing I really came here to see if i am actually that good at making friends, if i really AM easy-going, if i really can adapt and be resourceful by myself.
I think I can be. I think I just choose to surround myself with people I like because when i go home it's just me (only child) and that when i come off as dependent on someone its solely because now i know that i CAN do things by myself, but i'd rather experiance stuff with other people.
I'm missing my friends, but i don't want them at home, i want them here. so they can see what i'm doing because once i get home that's really it. Nobody knows what i'm doing and even though that made it a bit easier to act today infront of 100 people, it makes me wish that some people could see how hard it is for me to be here doing things all by myself.
ok rant over...
i need to go do my greek homework...in spanish...which means i'll prob. be on youtube :-)

Wed, 26 Mar 2008 17:53:54 GMT

So i just got a huge care package from my mom and our friends in London and it made my day :-)
its filled with trashy mags and chocolate and make up samples that she picks up everywhere because she knows i would if i were there.
I'm getting superrr sick of the other american girl thats here. she has no sense of humor and i dunno makes me feel stupid when i get a spanish word wrong which i mean COMEON i'm here arn't i? i'm trying! blah ok done with that rant...
So one tree hill is really big here and I tried watching it but its all dubbed and that just drives me crazy. (I try to guess what they say for like 4 minutes and after than i just get angry haha) So i've been spending all my homework time watching what they have on youtube. and now I am caught up and even ahead of spanish tv so isn't that just a fabulous waste of my time?
Right now i'm making a mix for A. my fabulous gay spanish friend who came up to me and said "sabes 'the hills'?" and i really just love it. he also LOVES britney and danity kane and for all the amazing music i have on my Itunes, i also have an obscene amount of trashy music and he loves it so i'm making a cd for him with all of my favs...
I guess this is just a giant ass ramble but I realllly dont want to look up the russian revolution. anyone want to sum it up for me?
Anyways, hope everyone is having a great spring break...:-)

MAYBE a spoiler..

Sat, 22 Mar 2008 19:52:13 GMT

Taylor Momsen and Chace Crawford walking in downtown manhatten after filming a new scene for GG.
A follow up from "seventeen candles?"
whatever it is...it's AWESOME.

from yahoo..

New Filming Pictures

Fri, 21 Mar 2008 19:45:10 GMT

Eric, Serena, and Dan (WHAT? those are their real names...shuddup) Filming new episodes :-)

the rest @ http://justjared.buzznet.com/2008/03/21/blake-lively-penn-badgley-2/#more-31664

Meh

Thu, 20 Mar 2008 00:29:25 GMT

Buffy alum Michelle Trachtenberg is joining the cast of Gossip Girl, reports TV Guide.

Trachtenberg, 22, will play Georgina Sparks, a troublemaker from Serena’s (Blake Lively) past. Mischa Barton reportedly turned down the role.

You just know there’s going to be a Blair (Leighton Meester) and Georgina showdown!!!

Michelle’s comeback career since 2003’s Buffy is certainly starting to take off! She’s also starring alongside teen heartthrob Zac Efron in 17 Again, out in August

from http://justjared.buzznet.com/

Meh...shes better than Mischa but personally I would have preferred someone more unknown like the rest of the cast was.

So.True.

Thu, 20 Mar 2008 00:19:39 GMT

bahaha i love the Fug girls...if you don't know www.gofugyourself.com you are seriously missing out!

DONATELLA VERSACE: I AM DONATELLA VERSACE!

LEIGHTON "BLAIR" MEESTER: I'm scared. But at least my dress is cute.

DONATELLA: YOU ARE DIVINE, BLAIR WALDORK.

LEIGHTON: It's..."Waldorf," actually, but I'm....my name is....thank you.

DONATELLA: WHY ARE YOU TRYING TO RUN FROM ME, BLAIR WALDOOF?

LEIGHTON: I'm not trying to go anywhere, Donatella. I promise you. I'll do whatever you want.

DONATELLA: YOUR RIGHT FOOT IS OUT OF YOUR SHOE AS THROUGH YOU ARE THINKING ABOUT RUNNING FROM ME, BLAIR WALDOOM.

LEIGHTON: No, no, no. No! No. I am just...stretching my instep, Donatella. I swear.

DONATELLA: DON'T DISPLEASE ME, BLAIR WALDIME.

LEIGHTON: I would never! I promise. I would never do anything to upset you.

DONATELLA: DO MY EXTENSIONS FRIGHTEN YOU, BLAIR WINGDING?

LEIGHTON:...do you want them to?

DONATELLA: BLAIR WAMU, DON'T YOU THINK I LOOK LIKE THE WORLD'S MOST HIGH-PRICED AND FEARED DOMINATRIX? IF SEXY AND EVIL HAD A BABY AND PAINTED IT WITH FURNITURE POLISH, WOULD IT BE ME?

LEIGHTON:...is that what you're going for? Because --

DONATELLA: I CAN'T LOOK AT YOU ANYMORE, BLAIR WALLBANGER. BRING ME THE HEAD OF CHUCK BASS.